We all struggle with loneliness at times.
Sometimes it feels like I am going to suffocate from the silence. Tonight I'm refusing to give in to the loneliness!!! After working a 12 hour shift(while I'm terribly sick). I came home to a dark, quiet house because the kids decided last minute to go camping with some family members. I fully expected loneliness to rear its evil head! It's really easy for me on nights like this to let loneliness trap me and steal my joy! But tonight I say NO to the struggle bus! Sorry(not sorry)...not getting on! Tonight I'm remembering there are some things worse then being lonely... *Like being in a marriage were you mean so little to your spouse that their cheating is a constant reminder of how replaceable you are. * Like being so afraid of people's reactions that you lie about your own thoughts and emotions. * Like not being understood. * Like watching your children as they deal with abandonment. * Like having someone make a mess of your finances, only to be blamed for their mistakes when confronted. Tonight I'm sitting here fighting the loneliness! Yet, I'm more confident than I've ever been in my entire life 😉 I'm honest with people about what I think and how I feel. I don't hide me! I have more money in my bank account than I've ever had in my life :-) and its ALL MINE LOL! And I have a small group of friends who I could call if the loneliness got too bad. I have my precious children who I love more then anything. Tonight Im chosing joy. Because there are worse things sometimes then being lonely ❤
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